I have around ten thousand thoughts an hour. Well it’s probably way more than that…actually I’m going to Google that right now.
Okay, so the average person has around 2,000 – 3,000 thoughts per hour. With that in mind I definitely believe that my prediction of 10,000 thoughts an hour for myself is true.
I have a hard time living in the now, it stresses me out that I can’t do it so I don’t push it. I live in the now when I can and when it feels natural. When I am practising Yoga or I am going for a walk or a run I am in that moment. The rest of my life is chaotic and twirly and I can live with that.
I will think way ahead of everything, which ultimately means I have my whole life internally mapped out. Not set in stone. I just like to plan little things. I like to know I’m doing stuff. And when I know I can think like this without it being stressful then I know I can relax.
I will wake up and run through my entire day. Then I will plan my week, I’ll move on to the events of the month, the next month, so on and so forth. Due to all of this pondering of the world, I often find myself listing random things I’d like to just randomly slot in to my life.
These things have no immediate time on them, they aren’t bucket list items, they aren’t goals or aims. They’re just some things I desperately want to do. Most of them don’t even have any real meaning, they don’t offer a sense of achievement or pride, they have no sense of purpose.
Some of them are going to be expensive and involve lots of travel for very little reward but I don’t care. I want to do these things without explanation. Without question. Whose business is it if I want to travel all the way to Lucas, Ohio and sit under the tree from ‘The Shawshank Redemption’? (Which I have just discovered no longer exists because it blew down in strong winds! I am absolutely gutted) Or go visit the Bridge of the Gods in Oregon because that’s Cheryl Strayed’s end point?
I have no reasoning behind my decisions. I just want to. For the same reason why I want to visit Hazard, Nebraska because it’s in the song ‘Hazard’ by Richard Marx.
I want to try kissing under water for no other reason than I think it would be really difficult. I want to make a big bowl of cake batter and just eat it all. I want to believe, wholeheartedly, for just 10 minutes that somewhere, The Doctor is real.
I want to travel to the furthest point away from any other person for no other reason than to say I have done it. (And there’s also the fact that I don’t like people) This place is called Point Nemo and the closest inhabited land is 1,671 miles away!
Sounds perfect, I’ll pack my bags.
It’s human nature to just want to do things, explore, examine, peruse. I’m not entirely sure that’s it’s human nature to just want to do things for the sake of it because I know that some people don’t understand that prospect and to be perfectly honest I don’t have an explanation. That’s the beauty of just letting your imagination run wild and doing things just because.
Why do I need a reason?
Who am I explaining myself to?
Who are you explaining yourself to?
Don’t ever let anyone make you think you’re not good enough.
Follow your dreams right now! Don’t wait until tomorrow,
next week, next year. Stop planning, start doing 🙂