Will I ever learn?


Got my ducks all in a row….

I’ve bloody gone and done it again…

I promise myself all the time that I will not take on too much. I know that eventually it all catches up to me, I panic and then decide I’m rubbish and nothing gets done.

I had a moment earlier today where I very nearly broke down and cried because I’ve taken on too much, again


Then I took a step back and looked at what I am taking on;


I am currently writing two poetry books and my next self help book; which need to be finished and published by July.

Reiki training.

A couple of other side ventures.

My degree with the OU.



A new YouTube channel.

Planning my trip away.

Trying to squeeze everything in to my week off.

A social life.


Then of course there is every day life; work, house things, stuff…

Now I’m not prepared to give up my social life, it’s my most favourite thing in the world and unfortunately I can’t yet give up work or my house, so those things are staying.

I can, however, remove or reduce some other stuff.

I evaluated what was important, the things I really want to keep and achieve and then looked at other things with a different perspective.

Even when we have good things going on in our lives we can still view them as something which is stressful. For instance I’m planning a trip to York and I am so excited about it but then I start getting all flustered;

“Will I have time to do this? Do I want to do that? Where should I eat? Should I book this or will I be able to just turn up?”

Instead of stressing I’ve just decided to leave it alone. I shall take the trip as it comes,Β  and see what happens.

That is very much the process I am trying so hard to apply to my life right now. Just take each day as it comes. And see what happens.

I scoured my list of “life things” and made the adjustments where I could…


  • Right, the books. I definitely need the poetry books completed by July as that is when I will be showcasing them at the UK Indie Lit Fest. However my self help book doesn’t technically need completing until September so that takes the edge off.
  • Reiki training should be relaxing, not stressful, so I’m not stressing about it, it will all happen when it happens. I don’t need to be fully trained right now. It’s not going anywhere.
  • My other side ventures are things that will slowly develop over time, they’re not here yet needing attention, I’m just worrying about them because once I start worrying, everything else starts to snowball and there really is no need.
  • My degree is well and truly over! Relief πŸ˜€
  • Blogging and vlogging are two of my favourite things to do right now and I stress that I’m not getting stuff “out there” on time, but then I thinkΒ  “Who’s time?”Β  I’m not on a deadline, I work for myself, calm the f**k down. I’ve given myselfΒ  a goal to aim for and that’s one blog post a week and two vlogs. That seems simple enough.
  • My new channel is in the pipeline but again it’s not imperative, there is no rush.
  • I did not plan a thing for my trip away and it was wonderful πŸ™‚
  • I must admit I could have done so much more with my week off but I’m not going to beat myself up over it. What needed to get done, got done.
  • My social life kicks ass.

And with that I am loving life, not stressing about this, that and the other… who am I kidding, of course I’m stressing, I’m just easing up on it. Stress less, less stress.



“The reward for conformity is, everyone likes you but yourself” – Rita Mae Brown






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